Like walking through a hurricane....

Hello again,

Recently (as of 2 months ago)
Tourettes has intensified. It's a constant battle against tourettes to sustain it from becoming really bad. I wake up aching from the day before (Either that or i do it in the night) My neck semi stiff, my arms aching, legs sore.

Which makes it very hard to actually get up out of bed. I tend to find i don't do it AS much when i'm on my computer, although i do it quite a lot while playing guitar or the Nintendo Wii.

People always say; 'Why don't you just not do it', well to siply answer that, try catching a bullet in your hands blindfolded. Yes, inpossible. I truly wish it would just, go away. But that hasn't happened yet.
I have actually thrown my guitar through my wardrobe twice this year, which didn't go down too well with my parents! It wasn't that i was angry, it was because i had a tic while playing my guitar, so yeah, end result usually isn't very good!
I use a drinking bottle to drink out of, because many a cups have been smashed or bent.
I have to use plastic plates and bowls as many a plate has been smashed. With the food on :( So i'm left hungry =/

I have OCD so i have morning rituals and night time ones as well. One thing that does completley cheer me up, even though i still tic and swear and grunt when doing it. Is playing the guitar, i absolutly adore playing the guitar, no matter how hard it may be for me to play without doing something to it (It's an early 1970's Rockster model).

Untill next time =]

Comments are apreciated :)

Tourettes in person

Hello everyone.

Ok, so i've basicly had some form of tic/twitching/grunting since birth, but it only got diagnosed as tourettes when i was 13 going on 14. (16 now) I have tried haloperidol, clonidine, Ritalin, fluphenazine and some others i can't remember. I was on about 12 to 14 tablets a day. And while they might of calmed the ticing and grunting/swearing down, i was turned into a zombie like state, hardly eating, sleeping and that's about it. I was on different set's of medication for about 1 year (I was doing GCSEs at this time) So i basicly missed one years worth of GCSE study, tests. We opted to be taken off the drugs, which took 2 - 3 months to slowly get me off. Due to the medication, i now have short term memory loss and can't actually think straight most of the time So the last year of GCSE's was tough for me, as i had 2 home tutors teaching me Maths, Science, and NVQ english Level 2 (see nas it was inpossible for me to catch up with The GCSE English) I was doing Art, EdExcel ICT, Animations as well. (When i finally got back to Art lessons, all my work had been lost) So i basiclly had to try to redo the first year of Art. I could only do half the ICT course because i missed a year of that.But in the end i got some pretty good GCSE results to say i quite liturally missed year 10. I got Double C in The Double Award for higher Science, C in Intermediate Maths, C in ICT, E in Art (you know why that is), A* in Animations . I passed the NVQ Level 2 English but am waiting to see what the GCSE equivilant is. I got the GCSE's i needed to get into the course in college i am going to do (National Diploma in Multimedia) Which i start next Monday!I don't take ANY medication now, i have got a very servre form of Tourettes, OCD, Short Term memory loss.But i have tourettes, tourettes doesn't have me!

I wouldn't mind meeting other people with tourettes =]