Such a strange hobby...

Hello Everyone,

With tourettes syndrome, I get quite bad OCD in some areas, such as having things in a certain way the way I want them, I can detect wether or not something has been moved in the slightest.

Now when I'm stressed or angry (which is quite a lot this past month) I tend to write songs, it comes naturally, depending on the mood I'm in, the song will come out like that mood. The lyrics sometimes can actually be quite catchy and I have a tendency to have them all saved in a certain folder, there must be hundreds by now, all put into different categories, by genre, mood, type, speed. Quite obsessive if I must say so myself!

Writing songs always helps to distress me as well so it's sort of a win win situation. The only problem is I don't know what to do with all these songs lying around like a lost cause!

This week has been quite tough and I have wrote about 40 songs, it's actually getting quite bad now!

Thank you for reading and taking your time, comments are welcome

Regards,
Mark

A moderate Worry

Hello everyone,

Now last week, on Thursday, my eyes did the thing where they would roll into the back of my head and completely piss me off.

But this time the pain was nothing i have ever felt, it was so unbearable, while i was trying to direct myself inside Ashby Link (where i was for college that day) i nearly passed out on the road, i had to bite my tongue to stop it.

When i got up to the second floor and sat on a chair waiting for lesson to start, the tutor came out and asked if i was ok, i couldn't speak because the pain was that bad so my body cried for me so he knew something was up.

Well eventually my mum came and they called the Paramedics,
i was put on Oxygen for half an hour while various tests where made on my blood,
i was barley conscious while the Paramedic was doing this. My friend was holding my hand but i couldn't feel her hand because the pain was taking over every nerve in my body.

The Paramedic said i did not need to go to Hospital, so when i eventually had the ability to stand up, i was escorted to my mothers car and we drove to my consultant at my local doctors.
She suggested i could have a form of epilepsy... which i will most likely be having tests done in November when i go to see the neurologist about my Tourettes again.. so basically i have Tourettes, OCD, and now worrying about the possibility of having Epilepsy. Great eh?

Thanks for taking your time in reading this post, i hope you can also take the time to comment as well.

Regards,
Mark

OCD and it's apparent Burdens....

Hello everyone,

Well as some of you may already know, people with Tourettes usually always have OCD as well (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)

Now OCD can be a very annoying and stressful thing to have to deal with, for instance i have a mobile phone to text my friends and so on, and i have this obsession with people replying to my texts, and if they don't I get really stressed and text them again, and so forth, now this is very frustrating for me as it can be very unpleasant for the recipient, but then again why wouldn't they text back?
If they have low battery, battery is dead, busy, don't have there phone on them, this doesn't stop it, because my OCD is telling me to do this, and I hope my friends understand this and text back eventually.

There has been fallouts over this in the past with various friends, but MOST of the time it's got sorted.

There is also this obsession in which I need to do a certain amount of press ups each day depending on what type of day it is and how busy I will be in the day, This can be very tiring and embarrassing, specially when I wake up and have to do some straight away and all my muscles are still hurting from sleeping.

I have some common obsessions like having to wash my hands and clean my teeth a certain way, and tidying my room in a specific way too.

If any of my friends are reading this, I hope you understand a bit more on why I can be a bit weird/awkward sometimes and hope you will understand this.

Medication? I have tried it for OCD and gives me the same horrible effects as it did when I took medication for my Tourettes, so medication in general is a big NO NO for me

Thank you for taking your time to read this and hope you could leave a comment

Regards,
Mark