Hello everyone
Ok so as I'm sure everybody with Toruettes knows, it's not exactly easy to make friends because of the way people judge you, now obviously not everybody is going to do this but the people who i have made friends with over the past two or three months, a week or two after, have ditched me becasue they either can't 'cope' with my tourettes or the way i am.
Now obviously this is very distressing to anybody but even more so to me becasue i find it hard enough to make and keep friends without people bailing on me like that.
And when i get the feeling I depress my friends when i am around them, is even more horrid.
I try and be positive minded and as upbeat as i can but latley that has become undoable.
I try my best to make my friends happy and sometimes that's just not good enough,
And when people find it so easy to make other people laugh and make them happy, I do sometimes wish i would of never had Tourettes in the first place, but i do, and its here to stay and i will fight it and battle the world to change the way Tourettes is looked at because I'm not ashamed I have it at all.
But I just wish friends would be more supportive about it all.
There's one person that is, but i get the feeling she is starting to not enjoy my company and would rather be around other people as i get the feeling i don't make her happy like I used to, this may be because of what I've been through in the past two months but that's no excuse from me.
I really hope that this is not the case and she feels the same as she did then as she means the world to me.
But it's happened before, my 'friends' find other people who make them happy and laugh and upbeat and then think 'why am i friends with this person who has Toruettes and doesn't make me happy?' and BANG before I know it, their gone.
I hope if i ever get there, University brings the goodness out of people and i meet great people who lift my mood up, because i need my friends close at the minute and they are so hard to come by, don't worry, Tourettes is not going to win, my character is stronger than any metal on this planet.
Thank you for reading,
Regards,
Mark
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Marrkk! haven't known you for very long, but your tourettes make you, you. Your a funny guy :)
Lovee kim x
Nawwwh thanks Kim hun =]
I hope reading like all this, you know like sometimes how i act isn't how i mean etc =]
Hope to get to know you better
Lovee Mark x
I have tourettes and zero real friends. People wont even look at me let alone talk to me. :(
You say you're not ashamed for having it, but I'm the opposite and wish I were never born. I give you credit for trying to be happy and upbeat, but after being made fun of all throughout middle school, I wasn't socially good enough to make friends in high school. I've even had people ask me if I'm on drugs because my ticks. I can't even drive because of it, I have the worst job, and have -no life-. Tourettes is a very cruel curse and it makes me feel completely alone in this world.
Do whatever you can to stay with that girl.
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