Monday 15 June 2009

End of college, beginning of the rest of my life

Hey everyone,

So I've just finished college, last week the whole of my design department made an exhibition to put on show for everyone, which would show off the best pieces of our work that we had done over the past two years. The exhibition will be up for around 3 weeks though parents and new students starting in September where invited on Thursday night and it was quite scary to be honest!

I couldn't look at my part of the exhibition because people where always around it, and watching the 3D games trailer I had made and also playing my flash game, which I guess isn't a bad thing! But I just couldn't look haha!

Well I've got 3 months until I start University so a lot of free time that's for sure! I got a new guitar early this month, so that makes two I have now! It's called a Schecter Damien B-2, its really good.

Of course, I'm still song writting and I will post one of them at the bottom of this blog, but theres something I would like to discuss.

I was walking down my local towns street when I was grunting and ticing, the usual (It's been pretty bad as of late with all the stress of handing in everything for college)
I heard a few chavy lads walk by mimicing me, I'm not too bothered I don't wanna cause a fight, but then one of the decided to throw a glass bottle at me, it missed thanfully and I was just about ready to turn around and unleash hell on him, but I thought to myself 'is he really worth it?' and walked away.

I just want to know wyour opinions, do you think that's not standing up for myself or do you think it's doing the right thing and not causing a scene?

Well I'd like to know your opinions!
As promised heres another song I wrote:

You and me,
We could of seen it all.
I could picture us standing
Standing so high and so tall.

And everything,
Could of went away,
If i had of been there for you.
And everyone,
They wouldn't have been this way.
If I had of been there for you

Don't you think I'm not dying inside,
My lifes built of paper planes
Your pulling the wings off,
They can no longer glide.

Can't you breathe once without hurting,
The ones that you love,
And everyone your hurting,
Your beginning to shove, away.

If my path was that simple,
You've torn it in two,
And I can't decide which direction,
And which one would suit you.

Don't you think I'm not dying inside,
My lifes built of paper planes
Your pulling the wings off,
They can no longer glide.

Please is the word, its so simple
The word that I seem to hear all the time.

Please is the word, your not hearing
The word that I no longer,
Feel I can hide.

And I beg you to stay,
Or please just wish me away,
So no more I feel what I feel inside

Make the pain stop, before I pass out,
Waking up without you by my side.
If I'm dreaming than stop me,
Theres not a lot more places that I can hide.

Don't you think I'm not dying inside,
My lifes built of paper planes
Your pulling the wings off,
They can no longer glide.

My papers so heavy,
The angles acute,
I can't see no way
That I won't fall, is this the end?

Oh I wish you would stay,
But I can't bare a lie,
The truths what I'm hearing.
Then I guess its goodbye..

Thanks for reading, hope to hear what you think,
Regards,
Mark

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Congrats on finishing!

I think you did the right thing by not starting a fight, but you might want to tell the police about getting bottles thrown at you, that is not on!

Exodius said...

Thanks k!

And yeah but that would mean having to deal with the police and they can be real idiots sometimes, even more so than the thugs described in my blog!

Well I've got from now till Sept of free time so guess I gotta start planing some stuff to do haha! Maybe theres a youtube convention or something coming up soon.

Lucy. said...

I love that song.
You're so honest about everything. :]

thisisace said...

Mark, you did the right thing.

There is a huge Youtube gathering happening in the summer. Will send you the link on Facebook ...

Zoey said...

I think that the two options you could have had would have resulted in two different things for the better, but also negative..

a) S T A N D I N G U P F O R Y O U R S E L F- you could have turned around and unleashed hell, correct. and what would that have done? caused a fight.. and maybe made the guy think about something that he did and how it was wrong.. but in the end either of you could have been hurt which is not good.

b) S I L E N C E I S G O L D E N- I think that by you being silent and just walking away.. you were a 'silent witness'. You were the bigger man by not having to throw/hit at them to teach them that you weren't going to be bothered or take the stuff they had to say.

I think that what you did was a good thing and I'm glad that you were hurt.
Your a good witness and example of hope and faith for all of us. (:

xx
Zoey